The truth

so today sandrine asked me bout my neclase charms and told her one was from my boyfriend. Thenn she starts investigating me:P asked me who asked who out and how and his school, and age and name... and i was like he asked me at the park, and then she imagined a cute whole scene of him asking me then us kissing and it being really cute and so far nothing has been cute with J, and really I want the hole chessy stuff, i wish our first kiss was cute, somewhere thoughtfull not just in his basement, and ex when he gave me the music note, he cud have thought about what charm to get and if he chose that then tell me y, b thoughtfull... like ok ya im having fun with him, but i want a cute relashionship... someone who likes me for me, loves all my inperfections and the way that i live, not just chilling... he hasnt done anything that ment a lot, it feels like im in this alone sometimes and thats truly not right:" like its still not too alte for him to do something, he could bring me somewhere that meens a lot to him, he cud get me to hang with his sister not just b like hi hi, i cud meet his dad and lil siblings...
heres what i really want in a ralshionship: i want a guy that i can open up to, and that he can open up to me, that i can talk to, i can act tcrazy and he will love it not think im weird. SOmeone that thinks about, that will do thoughtfull things, cuz as iv been saying my whole life: its the thought that counts, so who cares if its ugly! i once made my mom a cake and worked really hard but it turned out not to b edible, but thought that counts! someone that want push me, i can b rough with but he will no when to just hold me and never want me to get hurt and go any where. Ya i want all the cheesy stuff
jeremy, hes closed up, but as julia said hes my challenge thats y i havent broken up yet, sure its been nice having a boyfriend i guess but theres nothign there and if he doesnt change then the hell with him. he pushes me around a lot, but only sometimes i wish he would hold on to me and never let me go. he dosent ask about me, like i wanna tell him so much, maybe mad cuz im open, but the hell i wanna tell him, he never asks and 1/2 seems not to want to know. Its nice being around him though, its really 1/2 the time its nice when were just not doing anythign adn other half arkward :/ for me any way, and hes just a stupid guy who wants sex but really i just want a cute relashionship with trust, respect, hapiness
i wish he wud open a lil bit every now and trhen and that he'd tell peeps bout us, tell me what hes thinking and not b so closed up, mysterious in bad way
SIMPLE PLAN!! <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

i really dont no what im thinking but i like francescos idea best, tell j best way possible how i feel and if he doenst change within a motnh dump his ass! adn then imma b free and really confused
my brain is weird .....:/

-Slushies with skittles drinker-