well eka, i might have some wrong facts in here but ya... its gonna seem pretty random and weird the following text...remember you wanted to read it. you may just think after reading this that i dont understand anything at all but yuup ok goo read! :)
So you see i have many friends and most of them if not all are broken:
Julia: her mom is an alcoholic, her dad has thought about leaving her so he and his 3 daughters can have a better life but he wont because he promised her parents that he would take care of her and never leave her no matter what. So Julia has to live with her mom not having a job, and not being herself. So she makes sure she's always occupied so she doesn't have to think about it.
Blanche: Her parents broke up 1/2 way threw her life. She has gotten used to the fact but then recently her mom has been dating another guy and they bought a house in Laval. It was really killing her, the way her mom was acting and her waking up with those orange walls. She prefers being at her dad's where she's always lived and been at home. She feels like her mom hates her and no one understands her. She's afraid of others, always need more confidence to face the world... She calls me often to complain about her parents, what her mom just did or said. Once when I went over there for a sleepover, she pissed off her mom so much she called her dad to come pick her up and bring her to his house and i witnessed it all.
Erika: her parents almost split up hwen she was lilttle.. She went threw everything like it did happen only in the end they stayed together, and now they seem perfect:P Her parents don't give her much liberty but they do understand her not at all like my parents. They understand her love for music, and don't treat her so young. Summer 2010 she fell in love with this guy from camp. She was convinced he liked her to till he asked out her best friend. Her bestie rejected him by saying that Erika liked him and then he just pretended that it never happened after. She goes threw a lot everyday, She has these dark moments you could say... She has no trust in the world, no optimism.
Gaby: She is you could say more rich then others... Her parents let her do whatever she wants, they give her lots of liberty and she has been messed up her whole life. In sec 2 she got the news that her cousin a year older then her was pregnant. she spent many hours helping her cousin threw out the pregnancy. She started sleeping less. Then in sec 3 the baby was born and she spent many nights with the baby. Then to top everything off, a couple months later, the mom was in the bus holding her baby and while getting out of the bus someone pushed her and the baby was killed. Threw out the school year of sec 3 she had friends she spent her school hours with and then they started being bitches. At the end of the year she said i won't be hanging out with you guys much, hopefully next year cause i'm sick, its nothing personal. They never even talked to her after that:/ Now at this moment gaby spent the last week at a mental hospital. She wasn't about to kill herself, although that's what her parents thought when they found out with year, but she has had way to much drama going on. For those who watched the last season of Gossip Girl, you would have thought they stole gabys life...
Joelle: She's my friend from primary. i havent seen her much since high school but we still talk. She has gone threw a lot... She has had a lot of drama in the sense that her parents made her brake up with her boyfriend on the day of my birthday party, she had a really hard time making friends in high school and they have done really meen things to her. She has had boy drama and all the high school drama...
Alice: She's my old friend, she doesn't know it but she's anorexic, she's terrified to lose her family, she's very weird...
Jeremy: His parents divorced a long time ago! He's lived with dealing with it, but he doesn't seem to like his dad too much. His mom is 1/2 blind so she cant drive and i cant imagine that! He has had his heart broken by ex girlfriends and now i see that he cant trust anyone, including me. He has this wall up and it won't come down for a long time i know that...
Alex: He fell in love with this girl named Zoe in like 4 grade and since then they went out 3 times, he only thinks about her, when they aren't together he goes out with other girls to try to forget about Zoe and his life revolves around Zoe. His parents drive him insane...
So you see all these people i have and am around, it sometimes gets to me. The people i care about all have stuff going on. Me here's have iv been threw: i lost my first best friend just before first grade because i moved, then another one in like fourth grade, then one in sec 3, so ya iv been threw friends... I haven't been threw anything!! as horrible as it may sound, i sometimes wish something horrible would happen to me so that i could have something to b strong about, Because i complain about my stupid small parent and old friend problems and all little tiny things, yet i cant even be strong about that. I am so weak and i hate it. iv never been threw that .. i feel just so young, so useless, so stupid...
Everyone has a reason to be scared, and they are. I just feel like a lost fish in the sea... i know it sounds so stupid what i'm saying and i should just be happy nothing has happened to me, but i guess i figure it will someday ....i should be thinking about how lucky i am compared to my friends, yet i think of how unbroken i am to everyone else and how i can never relate to them.
I cant explain how i feel... guess i feel kinda lost,....?
soooo thats what i had written the other day... yup:)
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