Die

so lets see, first im doing hw hes playing his game, making noise so i tell him to go upstairs. then i can still hear him, screaking and shit even with his door closed. so i play music. then he comes down, i leave it on cuz hes just on facebook and youtube( when hes not supposed to be -.- ). after he plays his music really loud all of a sutton, i ask him to turn it off he says no cuz i have mine on, so i turn mine off after a minute he turns off his too. then after i get headphones to listen to music cuz hes making all these noises, and i hear the beep of facebook messaging. btw i can see what hes on cuz of the reflexion in the window:P then im watching a vid of a person playing the drums and i ask him cuz ehs chatting with his friend on skype if she plays drums, knowing the answer was no but just felt like it. he gave me a look like obvs not, then i put headphones back on, then he shuts my laptop, it took 5 min to be able to turn it on and it was still loading after that. i had clsoed his after he did mine it took him 1 min-.- then after hes laughing with his friend at me cuz im pissed off with him, i dont give a fuck what she has to say i just dont want to hear her,now how the fuck am i supposed to work??? arrrg go die. now hes showing some ahh now hes all normal, tells me mom said we can eat whatever we want tonight cuz shes gonnabe home late since shes at a funeral of her old friends mom... so im making super and guess waht seans doing! playing his game!-.- so now im just still blasting SHUT UP by simple plan with my beats, killing my ears but healing my soul.

-Elena

ps: sorry for this spazz text

Addicted?

So im starting to get convinced that Sean is addicted to video games, well to LOL. When T&C were here he once got up at 1 am to go play... When my parents aren't home, like now, first thing he does when he gets home, takes out laptop, calls Justin tell him he can play and he starts playing! Thats all he does in his free time, thats all he'll talk about. He's bugging me with his game cuz ill be doing hw and all i hear is him screaming about his game... he blows on his mouse, for whatever reason, does it super fast and then gets mad cuz he messed something up in his game... he doesnt change when he gets home cuz that wud waste time... if he was supposed to bring the dog out, he'll only do it when the aldults get home so he can play more... He needs to get a life-.-

-Elena

What if

I really like this song by coldplay cause it reflects a lot of my fears

What if there was no lie.
Nothing wrong, nothing right.
What if there was no time?
And no reason or rhyme?
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side.
That you don't want me there in your life.

What if I got it wrong?
And no poem or song..
Could put right what I got wrong,
Or make you feel I belong
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life.

Oooooh, that's right
Let's take a breath, jump over the side.
Oooooh, that's right
How can you know it if you don't even try?
Oooooh, that's right

Every step that you take
Could be your biggest mistake
It could bend or it could break
But that's the risk that you take
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there in your life.
That you don't want me there by your side.

Oooooh, that's right
Let's take a breath jump over the side.
Oooooh, that's right
How can you know it when you don't even try?
Oooooh, that's right

Oooooh, that's right
Let's take a breath jump over the side
Oooooh, that's right
You know that darkness always turns into light
Oooooh, that's right..

good luck!

GOOOD LUCK ON YOUR MATH TEST GUYS!!! i know we can all do great, so lets all do great together!!!!! i hope you get a 90 eka! you can do it!

-Nessa

good luck!

GOOOD LUCK ON YOUR MATH TEST GUYS!!! i know we can all do great, so lets all do great together!!!!! i hope you get a 90 eka! you can do it!

-Nessa

good luck!

GOOOD LUCK ON YOUR MATH TEST GUYS!!! i know we can all do great, so lets all do great together!!!!! i hope you get a 90 eka! you can do it!

-Nessa

passion play

• • Hey,
    
    I am writing on Julia's behalf. Given that she is playing Jesus, she would like to request that she be allowed to sing Endless Night from the Lion King. She really loves that song, and it could potentially work as a garden scene song for her. I do realize that it would require writing in a bit of an extra scene but I dont see that being overly complicated. Anyways give it some thought and get back to her when you can either via me (sara) and facebook, or you could email julia.
    Thanks,
    Sara and Julia
    
    ps we wont be able to make it tomorrow btw (I indicated that on my availability sheet...)

• • and Linda wrote back...

    Hey girls, Hehe yes Julia, you have been casted as Jesus, although you might not know how many songs you already have major solo's and duets in. You are the main soloist for Testify to love, and you have big solo's and duets in I have a hope, I believe, and Daddy why. You have the third biggest singing role in the play (other two are Debra and Sara (but Sara doesn't know this yet haha)). Also, this years Jesus is very 'communal' oriented and it wouldnt make sense for the flow of his character to have the stage to himself. But I would like to keep the song in mind for another year.
    Im sorry Julia but I think adding a song would take away from your character and seriously overload you.
    I hope you understand and we can take about this more on Sunday (we are going to work scene 6 and 3, and do a whole lot of singing)
    Linda

    
    

    Its EXACTLY what sara and I though she would write....except for the whole having more songs than I thought. I'll mention it again so they know I'm not happy about it, but I won't sing the song since they ARE letting me sing more. Sara has decided she won't quit but shes not really happy about it :S...but she'll be there :)

    -Sekoya

Cayne and Tristan :D

so yesterday there two bros cayne and tristan came over, part of the exchange program!we went to get some crepes yuummeh first one i had, i had vanilla ice cream and strawberries! then we went to seee my dad and to his party and this old guy comes and grabs e, pullls me in the middle of tghe dancing cercle and takes off my jacket in striptease way! omg i died! it was such a blast!!! tristan wudnt dance though:/ but hahah and blasting music in the car, singing, omg i had a blast!!!!

today we went to the biodome, hahah, then to the old montreal cudnt get a beaver tale though, but went skatting outsideo n lake thing, a blast!!! and then went to the car shwo! omg GORGEOUS CARS!!!! it was long after awhile though.. but i had a really fun day!!! cayne is such a cool kid:D so the biodome had some really cool animals! i loved the penguins!XD omg they were way too funny! and some really pretty birds<3 the old port, we walked around a bit, cuz first we planned on going skatting, second we get there they closed the skattign! then we find out beaver tale and canady plaace ( where we went in the summer to see the fireworks and the ships!) yeah so i was very sad... then we go back and i convinced everyone to go skatting so we did!:D it wass pretty funny! i was proud of my mom cuz she hasnt skatted in years! and she was fiinnne:) i had to tied caynes skates, he called me his mother for that. haha, oh ya b4 that we went to the golden arches for lunch:) haha getting in the carf to head to the enxt destination, i sit in middle, then cayne like jumos bside and the tohers had to sit in theback:P then the car show, i swear i was dying... that porche, and mustang, and ferrari omg.cant explain how beautiful they were! i would looove to just drive inone! <3 at one point a guy was talkking to cayne tristan sean dad mom so i did a cartwheel:) it was quite long the car show, like towards the end i was getting tired of standing:/ omg i forgot to say b4 the car show we went to china town and got the furtune cookies that i loved and ate in mandarin! yuuummyyyyy! so then we finally head home, imm with cayne in the back back, and i had tot ake out my earphones to play music cuz i was dying with the very low radio, so i get him to take out his ipod andits cool, hes showingme a lot of newmusic and lots weboth like, f=(btw HE LIKES ALLSTAR WEEKEND!! he said blame it on september is his favorite, he only has 2 on his ipod, this shudntbe legal, andcome down with love) he also like cody simpsons music, he had onmy mind stuckk in his head:P then we get pizza, at home later were all upstairs playing games, halo, grand theft auto....:) OMG! at the car show guess who out of all the people we saw!!??? ALCINO! uncle i havent seen in years, still havent spoken to cuz we ran away fro him, omg i laughed to hard!!! it was too ironic! some place, same time! whoaaXD mike wasntt here though:(

so iv been having a hell of a blast with Cayne! hes taller then me, acts older then his age:P he was funny, when sean and tristan were being silly he chilled with me:P i really dnt wanna go to school tomorrow! i just wanna do more acitivies with em! yeah cayne was defending me against seanXD acking why hes so annoying to me. and hahah sean only found out friday that i broke up with jeremy,but i had told him b4 but whatevs, and yeah then cayne was like oh whos this guy? lets go kick his ass! then sean and him r like yup were gonna go kick his ass! too cute! sean was asking waht did he do? and im like nothing ut he ket asking-.- so yeah this text is a real mess cuz i started b4 but didnt have time, now im finishing.... yeah so bout tristan! hes so cute, he got me and fam a gift! sean chocolate, me purfume from pink i think, orvictoria secret... smells good:D perfect timing to cuz i wantted purfume! hes a lil cutie pie! this morning we woke him up and once he woke up starts making his bed and was pretty awake! his short, computergeek! theyregona downloadme some games:)

so now more bout friday! so yeah i first meet the guys, so i open the door then leave fast cuz food cooking, then goback and say hiii im vanessa! caynes first to say hii, shakes my hand, then tristan! sean shows them around, i finish making super. were chillingin the computer room after(caynes room now) and then we leave, it was fun in the car, nice car drive! ihad my ipod, so we kept swichtnig mine to caynes, very different types of usic played, really fun! i was signing a lot:D rapping with cayneXD haha so crepes were coolios:) sat bside cayne, haha his friend is with a really french family:P we elave, then go back to take a pictureXD so we go to dads party, we waitting at door for him to come, i see 2 guys grinningXD then he says we can go over there. so the room was like in 2, oneside5 big tables, other lil tiny but cute dance floor! sowere over there and then say hi to owner, then after this old guy, black long hair comes to me,grabes myhand and brings me in the middle of people dancing, old poeple dancing is hilarious! then striptease to take off my jacket, then is throwing it in the air, like at a habs game, peeps with the white towels, like cowboy, really funnny then at one point im in cercle and this lady grabs cayne hes dancing:P then comes with me, sean joins but tristan wont, i tryed like 4 times:P seans really awks when dancing, like ''dancing'':P we leave after a bit, in car sean and tristan fell asleep, cayne wide awake. get home and im like elts watch a movie, cayne agrees. tristan went straight tobedand tghen we watch insidious! cayne got a lil scared even though he saw thr trailler andnew the whole story!:P yeah so thst was firday..

so i have cool convos with cayne::P he was taling bout this girl that wears waaayy to much makeup! and how he hates when girls wear that much. also him saying dont u just wanna jump and make out with that person when they smoke!? all sarcastic:P our convo bout weed:P he was saying it smelled like weed at the car show, im like wudnt know... then he explain what he finds it smells like, i never have, weed here shit blalbal...:P

ok i hear parentscomming so ima go sleep!

-Elena

Arièle's Birthday card

the people in my life

I dont know what im doing but since its kinda late and i can't call you guys I'll try to transfer my thoughts into writing.

ERIKA

when emily was in class and me alone in her apartment, I tried to figure out what was going on with you. I listened to all of the songs you put on the blog so many times. you say that music understands you so I was listening to the one thing that understands how you feel.

I feel like you are slipping away. you are putting in your earphones on at lunch more and more and you zone out and get absorbed with the music cause its the only thing you feel understands you.

I wanted to know why everytime you mention how i never stay mad at things, you say it as if its a bad thing. I guess its partly cause you are afraid of me getting used. and partly cause you would never let someone force you to do something you dont want to do. you dont put up with someone for long if they are taking advantage of you. you'll stand up for yourself. I DO let people take advantage of me.I let my mom take advantage of me, I let arièle take advantage of me, I let my sisters take advantage of me, I let the people at passion play take advantage of me, I let my dad take advantage of me... I let everyone take advantage of me to a certain degree! I got it from my dad!

I was reading over the birthday card I got from you this year and then read the one from last year. they are so different yet it was only one year. we've been through more together this year than we have in the past ones i think. the most significant moment for me is when we had the sleepover at my house and I wound up crying in my bed and you came over. my friendship toward you became so much stronger that moment cause you saw me completely fallen and broken and NO ONE has EVER seen me like that.

you've been sad and harsher about everything lately and I'm confused to what is going on. you are angry at the world. is it that, that makes you so pessimistic. but is there something specific going on in your life that is bringing this on. i guess its mainly cause we are teenagers and so unstable and being angry at the world is like the number one thing teenagers are mad at. we are acting like typical teenagers but how do i help you get through this stage?! how do i make it easier. you wont be in this stage forever but for the time being what are the pain killers?! other than music. what can iii do

ZOE

I dont have much to write about you. its just that i've noticed that we hadn't been talking much like we used to and I realized, now that im talking to you more again how much talking to you helps me. every word you utter sounds so right. you make me realize things. alot that i already know. i wish i could call you right now so you could make sense of whats going through my head.

ARIÈLE

Ive figured out one thing about us lately. I was comparing the issue with francesco and emily to the issue with us. francesco feels like emily doesn't do as much to show that she loves him. he gives and gives and gives and emily doesn't give as much but cares for him equaly. my dad pointed out that when you do something you shouldn't expect anything in return. you should do something cause you want to. In our relationship I give and give and give and dont get much in return. I DONT expect anything in return. so as ive realized its not that you dont give back to me thats the problem (like it is for francesco), its that i give and you give me back poop. you get mad at me for no reason, you put me last and all of this without realizing it so then it makes me rethink why i do nice things for you. I do them cause i want to but I rethink it not when i dont get anything back but when you treat me like crap. so the francesco emily thing is in the end not that similar to the julia ariele thing. since i KNOW you care about me but you do a bad job at treating me nicely,

MOM

you SCREWED up my life, yours and everyones close to you. I love you really is starting to sound like a lie. and you are addicted! and as zoe pointed out. until YOU decide to put the bottle down we are not going anywhere. you can have all the supervision in the world but since you are an addict, until you decide not to be one, we can't do anything to help. you have to CHOOSE! you were never there for your daughters. we've been taking care of you are whole lives. and now because of you we have to take care of dad too. who's taking care of your daughters. dad will never leave you cause he made a commitment to you and won't back down. he gives and gives and never expects anything in return and you choose to cheat on him with a bottle of vodka. you choose to yell at him and to complain to him and to make him feel guilty. you choose to bring him down with you. but we are still there holding on to him keeping him from getting to close to the bottom.cause we WONT let him go down with you. with emily gone and sara always out I'm left caring for you and dad alone. I was the one holding the gauze to your eye after you fell down the stairs and Im the one who consoles dad when he can't deal with YOU anymore. not sara or emily! ME! look what you've done! Fix it! obvioulsly i will still try to fix you cause you are the only thing I cant let go of! but i've never been good at puzzles so FIX yourself! before I break MYSELF trying to fix you and dad!

VANESSA

keep on doing what you are doing cause our friendship is getting stronger and stronger. memories are creating themselves.

ELYSE

you know EVERYTHING. you know the time that i put into things. you know how much i care for my friends. you know that a give and dont expect. you worry about me so much. all in all you think waaay to highly of me

-Sekoya

How do we feel about her: Erika

I think we need another one of these...

-Sekoya

Sean-.-

So this is how it all started... So my brother has 2 boys coming over for a week from Toronto, we have a bed for one but we didnt know what to do for the other, my momthoguht alot about it. She thought that if the boys were in the basement it wouldbe too much of a sleepover, so she thought one could sleep in the guest room, my brother in hisbed and the other boy on a air matress in Seans room. So while Sean was watching TV, she moved around the furniture to make room for the air matress. I come up from the basement to get a smoothie, then hear my brother having a fit. I go see whats to horrible about his room.. It looked great, perfect for the boys with the most room possible! Sean was saying so many fucking stupid arguments. He said that 1 foot is not enough room between him and the dresser because his hand will hit it while hes sleeping-.- then says the alram isnt good there cause he needs to get up to turn it off or he wont wake up, how it will get really loud the beeps, then it will wake up daddy-.- sean, go look for a new excuses book! ;) We were all yelling, i started yelling more at Sean cause my mom was loosing her voice, shes been sick for the past 2 weeks, couching all night not being able to sleep all the time... I was sooo pissed off with Sean! hes pathetic, immature, a stupid fuck, thoughtless, selfish, young,...After i blue up the air matress i told Sean, now take 2 breaths with me, he wouldnt, but i continued, i told him look what mommy has done, she thought of a way for the boy to stay in your room, she moved the furniture all by herself (wish i knew what she was doing, i wouldve helped) and then i told him to say thank you to her, he sys thank you sooo sarcastically and i start screaming more. he never thanked her... he never means his thanks yous, like even when he says it without someone telling to say it, and we do a lot cause he never seems to realize what we do for him and never truly thanks us.... and it upsets my parents...

AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGG now im much calmer then befor, thank you music <3

Iv been listening to remembering sunday by all time low all day, been in my head whole time... when i got home from school, i went upstairs, made sure all the doors were closed, and started to sing in the hall, it has a nice eko, that i can hear myself well in:) i enjoyed singing the song there:) then in the car i brought the CD, and i played the song, at first mom started talking-.- then im singing and shes like whats this song about? i say listen... she was quiet for the rest of the song, said at one point the lyrics were nice, i think thats the word she used, but the way she said it, she ment it, like.. cant explain, but it was nice:)

-Elena <3

Another video I find very inspiring :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=1QotMsJs0PU

I feel invincible;

Um well, to make it short, I told him yesterday. I completely and totally put myself out there. And you know what he said? :) "Erika, I love you, but just not like that... You deserve better." And you know what my reaction was? I just smiled. I smiled for 15 minutes straight. I did it, I faced my number 1 fear and that was the only thing that seemed to matter. I'm just so so so happy I did what I did and I woke up this morning thinking it was all a dream. But it wasn't, that's the best part. I seriously do not know what came over me, because I was NOT ready & I was shaking like a madwoman as I said it... I guess, I finally realized, on July 14th at 2:30am, that I had to get it out somehow. And I'm the proudest I've ever been with myself.

So, I hope my story helps you girls in the future. If you may be in a similar situation.... Just do it.

Today.

-xxx-

-Eka

Friday the 13th

I had an interesting day friday. Most importantly I got a turtle. I also got 39 on 40 in my math. test. But my mom was also drunk. She has been getting herself drunk quite often over this month so I don't think it was her resolution. However yesterday she was REALLY drunk. we were eating supper and she was making the weirdest comments but at this point we all laugh at her cause she says the weirdest things when she's like that. We were able to see that she was progressively getting more drunk as whatever she drank kicked in. My dad told me to bring her up to her room. So I did the usual. I told her that she had worked really hard all day and that shes probably really tired and that she should go to sleep. So i half carried her up the stairs and lay her down telling her in a nice voice to go to sleep. I went back down stairs and continued eating. all of a sudden we hear bang bang clunk bang and we run to the stairs where my mom had just fell and was now sitting on the ground cradling her head in hands. My first aid training kicked in and I did what I was supposed to do. I realized while I crouched down beside my mom that all I really felt was irritated and I was hoping she hadn't done anything serious to herself cause I didn't want to have to go to the hospital. I wasn't worried about her! at all!

my dad and I carried her upstairs and discovered that she had a cut over her eye we took care of it and then my dad left and i stayed there and held the ice on her head. She was so annoying cause she wouldn't stop trying to touch the bandage and every time she would lift her arm I would say ''arm down!'' but since she was drunk she would forget every time and I was really annoyed so every time she lifted her arm I'd grab it and pin it down and yell at her to keep it down. I was alone in the room cause I kinda volunteered to take care of her. Sara came up at one point cause she as leaving and I mentioned how I felt bad cause I didn't care that she fell and was just really irritated. Sara made me feel better cause she said she knew how I felt. I was talking about the incident today in the car with my dad and we were exchanging stories about when my mom has been drunk in the past. My dad was saying how once when sara was six emily was 5 and me one, he recieved a voice mail from sara and emily crying saying mommy was on the floor drunk and they didn't know what to do.

Imagine! we were all so young and I was a freakin baby and my mom was drunk on the floor.

My dad cam rushing home. he said that he lost 5 years of his life that day.

I remember my mom falling down the stairs sooo many times! I remember from when I was five till now. I remember when I was in 2nd- third grade being on the phone with my dad in tears cause mommy fell down the stairs or cause mommy is drunk. I remember calling Josée (freds mom) so many times when I was in 5th 6th grade cause I'd be alone at home and my mom would come back home drunk and I didn't knwo what to do. she once got dropped off by the ambulance and I didnt know what to do so I called Josée. I remember in 4th grade till now not calling anyone cause I knew the protocol when it comes to my mother being drunk. I remember once in elementary school when my mom picked me up after school and I could tell she was drunk so I didn't want to go in the car cause sara had told me never to drive with mom when she was drunk but my mom forced me in and I cried the whole 5min ride cause I was afraid I was gonna die. I remember so many moments from when my mom was drunk. I've seen my dad slap my mom when she was drunk trying to snap her out of it. I've seen myself slap my mom cause I was so mad at her. I seen my sisters on the phone with my dad. She's screwed up our lives and I hate her for it. She's messed me up so much and I remember when Erika showed me the song by Demi Lovato and I cried. I listened to it just now and sobbed cause its exactly what i feeling

Four years old with my back to the door,
All I could hear was the family war.
Your selfish hands always expecting more.
Am I your child or just a charity award?

You have a hollowed out heart,
But it's heavy in your chest.
I try so hard to fight it,
But it's hopeless, hopeless.
You're hopeless.

Oh father, please father
I'd love to leave you alone, but I can't let you go.
Oh father, please father
Put the bottle down for the love of a daughter.

It's been 5 years, since we've spoken last,
And you can't take back what we never had.
I can be manipulated only so many times.
Before even "I love you" starts to sound like a lie.

You have a hollowed out heart,
But it's heavy in your chest.
I try so hard to fight it,
But it's hopeless, hopeless.
You're hopeless.

Oh father, please father
I'd love to leave you alone, but I can't let you go.
Oh father, please father
Put the bottle down for the love of a daughter.

Don't you remember I'm your baby girl?
How could you push me out of your world?
Lied to your flesh and your blood
Put your hands on the ones that you swore you loved.
Don't you remember I'm your baby girl?
How could you throw me right out of your world?
So young when the pain had begun,
Now forever afraid of being loved.

Oh father, please father
I'd love to leave you alone, but I can't let you go.
Oh father, please father
Oh father, please father
Put the bottle down for the love of a daughter.
For the love of a daughter

Michelangelo! my turtle!

News

so about maggie, my mom drove her at 6 oclock to the lakeshore vet... shes prob gonna stay there another 2 nights...

you have to give me a update on Amber julia... maybe tmrw if i remember:)

me, well today i stayed home, sean and mom are sick, worse then me, int he morning my throat was bugging me mroe then usual and i had no energy, first time mom let me stay home with that, prob cuz doesnt isnt home:P and shes sick and tired too. turned out to be a good day to miss cuz only thing i shudhave been there for was cabane à oiseau...

i did math hw then rushed to bronze-cross,ate pizza fast in car, made it there just in time! Aron and peeps were waitting for me upstairs, i came sid hi to him, was surprised stephania was there and all happy, and saw joelle L, very surprised to see her! we high fived, yup:) her brother was there too, hes funny, he was like u take the 201 right? and im like yuup:D so then we go downstairs, see Freddy, she was the asssitant teacher b4, we did a review of stuff, no funa nd games today::P peeps who were in my sessino from b4, me and 3 others knew more then the others:P we did time swim, last session had to do 25 laps in 15 min, now 26 in 18-.- i took my time and actually did 26 in 14 min!!! i was pretty happy:D we had a egg better tournament, and ei wonXD i beat2 guys and the girl gave up-.- i hate whenn peeps give up-.- she was the onloy challenge ihad though:P sothen class was over and i had fun! then bus time... so sicnwe my mom was driving maggie to vet i had to take the bus, and the ONLY TIME i didnt bring my opus or book or earphones or ipod was day i needed it most. mom gave me money for bus though, felt so weird not having opusXD at least i had my phone to listen to music, low against my ear, but hey! guess what!? it wasnt working:D -.- i since yesterday i cant send any text or receive so cant contactmom or anyone, then today found out i cant call or receicve calls! great ya know!so after im at farview, then i was goignt o stop i took during hole summer home from camp, and guess hwat!? its not there anymore, been replaced-.- and that bus doesnt came at 9 anything. and ic ant call my momto see where shes at, home, far away, how much longer she will be, what shud i do nope! cant even call sean, or use twitter, bahh-.- so then i was debating walking home, which wud b very long, then guy asks me if im waitting for 201, i say no i donno what im doing, (...) he said i think that 201 over there si different then this one, prob the one you want. so i walk down there and askt he bus driver if this goes to brunkswick, took me min to remember other street-.- henrie daoust. she said yes, so i go in, then the bus goes in pointe-claire, passes karolinas house, near julias, and im thinking omg where is this bus going??:O then i try to stay calm and picture it, thinking ok so it will prob go to pointe claire village, but how then i figured it out and it went exatly where iw anted it to, then i knew where i wud get off! then walking home, park hadnt been plowed so deep snow-.- and i finally get home after 1hour and 15 min of trying to get home, figuringthings out. sooo happy!:P then i watch big bang, new episode and then do math andnow im going to be going to bed, tired but not too much cuz i woke up 12 hours ago:P

ya so tmrw imma ahve to call fido and get them to fix it in that minute cuz if i have a cell i want it to work!

now js writtign on my wall asking if i was mad at him cuz i cant receive his texts, so cant answer, well i saw 1 but didnt wanna say hi back:P imma try to see himt his weeknd, return hi smovie.... and omg next weekend im way too exited!!!! my bro has either 1 or 2 guys comming frmo toronto!!! weve planned the hole week! gonna go see hockey game wed, eat potine, make latire, go at the old port, skatting at hollefer....:D he wants potine and to see hockey game, wich is funny cuz toronto has team and all...::P guess waht!& the day he comes theres a game in toronto sadly, habs and agsint mapple leafs!!XD we'll ahve to try to watch it on tv:P hes goign skiing with the school too! hes gonna have a blast!!!

okii getting late, and yay hurts to swallloooooooo- need halls:P gonna go get them lalalalalalalaaaaa

-Elena:)

Why I Love ATL So Much....

As you obviously know, I'm in love with a band from Baltimore called All Time Low. They have really inspired me and their music helps me in so many ways. As you may also know, I have a humongous temper (stupid character trait from my dad) and I sometimes lose control when I'm upset. I have found that ATL's music almost immediately calms me down. When I feel like I'm about to start screaming or even get violent, I just turn on their music. It makes me happy. The lyrics understand me on a different level. In a lot of their songs, they are blatantly honest, make fun of the fucked up society we live in and they look at things in a darker way most of the time... They just take the words out of my mouth sometimes. I know I shouldn't always think of the sad stuff & society in a bad way, but to be honest, I'm just tired of people telling me to think differently. I'm so relieved that someone can actually sing songs about the bullshit of people & life, have lyrical diversity and change their sound so often.

I have a lot of respect for people that have good grammar and good writing skills. One of the things I admire most about songs is lyrics, it's just the thing that grabs me.

When people can sing amazing live (on key and everything), my respect for them just escalates so much. These are the people that deserve to make it big in the music industry. Alex has a very peculiar voice. It's different and people either adore it or hate it... All I know is I've never heard the kid mess up a note and I'm one of those people that adore his voice. I usually get attracted to different voices because of my own, being so different from most girls. His voice is unique and gives me hope!

Alex Gaskarth. Jack Barakat. Zach Merrick. Rian Dawson. I love every single member in the band. They are so into what they do and you see how much they love it when they perform. They've been in this band for atleast 7 years now and they almost never stop touring because they love it so much. They never set out on this journey for fame, it was just something they enjoyed doing, now THAT is something I loooove about them. They've barely had any radio play at all and they have this huge fanbase... Very understandable. They are insane!!! They do not give a fuck and if I'm going to say this about anyone, it's going to be them. I love how carefree they are... It's something I've always admired, to a certain extent of course! They're so funny, awkward and to the point :)

Hehehe, I don't know why I wrote this down... I guess I just felt like it!

xx

-Eka

hi hi hi ::)

so hedley's comming here march 12 with classified opening and down with webster january 20, yup im just dying. i have/will see them at some point, hopefully soon!

i played ATls nothing personnal album at home with sean at table, then so wrong its right now dirty work, its fun listening to all the albums i have and sean liking them and nodding his head and more:P

i miss hollywood ending:(

lalala so were starving... dads in qc city till friday late night, then hes working sat:P and mom is going to my grandmas to bring maggie to the vet.. she said marmie said she cant get up and walk..... it better just be soemthing small, happening for now, i dont want anythign happening to maggie ( btw shes a dog incase u didnt get that:P) im scared soemthing wrong...

lala k im gonna go read:)

- Elena:) ( yup iv decided imma sign my name elena now:) )

Hahahahaha ATL is so funny.

"I'm not even on drugs, I'm just weird." <3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hwgS-9dKeAg&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TvscNlzHdqU&feature=related

-Eka

can't sleep

I've been awake all night! i can't fall asleep! arg!

-Sekoya