Well i did enjoy the congrès at some points but not all of it however the whole idea of it got me thinking more about what i want to do.
I,ve known since i was vey little that I wanted to become an actress and that's what im set on doing as a job. I want to go to john abbott in the acting program and start off from there. Obvioulsly the complication number one steps in when it comes to getting into the school. I'm worried about the fact that i don't have a good idea of what im up against and I'm worried that im not good. Not being good is actually what im most worried about because having my family and friends say im a good actor isn't reassuring because these people have a personal relationship with me. I never get any constructive critisisum from anyone so i don't know what im doing good or what im doing bad and how to correct it. I'm stepping into the unknown with no one to tell me where to go. thank god ive got my family and friends for support or else i wouldnt know what i would do. I'm happy that I'm gonna see the Improv. show at elyses school cause that'll probably give me an idea of how these kids are a other schools.
I'm also frustrated cause i don't have the oppurtutnity to act with people who are better thn me cause im always with the sec 1s so i nver have an example to follow. I just follow my instinct and hope that my acting is good. I can't see an improvement in me cause i don't know how to set a goal since I just try my best to interpret charaters and act acordingly. I know im good at volley cause i've been able to see how ive improved over the years just by the fact tha i can always get my overhand serve and i an know do strong smashes now. I don't see in what im improving or if im improving at all when it comes to acting.
I'm afraid to not be accepted in the program because it'll be hard to know what i need to work on unless they straigt out tell me and it'll be disapointing to find out that even if i did try my best with no real directives I wasn't good enough. I dont know if i have any talent in acting cause i have no one to compare my self to! I'll just have to do my best and hope i won't have to deal with to much disapointment. im scared but it won't stop me
posted at 5pm
-Sekoya
You know, iv never seen you act...:P umm that has to change soon...
ReplyDeleteand we'll why dont you find people, like you can ask people you know just arent close to for their opinion on your acting...
and umm for you to compare... imma think about that:)
Slush with skittles drinker- ;)
Haha, well you should come to the Passion Play, Van... And Julia, you have talent :) you just have to believe and if it makes you feel more secure, prepare yourself to try to handle the disappointment if it should happen, which it shouldn't, but just in case!
ReplyDelete-Eka
yea vanessa you should come to the passion play! haha
ReplyDeletead im ready for the disappointment but disappointment wo't stop me cause acting is what i want to do. I don't care how unrealistic it is. It won't stop me. I can't come up with a plan b cause at least at the moment a plan b isn't an option cause at the moment acting is wat i want t do. ill have to live with the consequences of that.
I'm crazy and i know and will get hrt but that's just a part of life and it hsn't come yet so why think of it now?
-Sekoya
That's good to hear! But I still think that, even if it's at the very back of your mind, you should have a plan b. Just an idea of it. No need to concentrate on it of course, because acting is your priority and I want it to stay like that :)
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*by the way, when it says comment has been removed blablabla, it's because i forgot to sign my name hahaha
my plan b isn't an option though it'll have something to do with acting (at least right now) like i could toally become an acting teacher if my plan a doesn't work out. I don't want to think of it though cause a plan b means that there is a chance at failure and i don't to think about failing. Cause like vanessa told me and as they say in back to future '' you can accomplih anything yu put your mind to''
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P.S. You do realize I'm just saying this cause I'm trying to convince myself?
I'm aware the chances of me succeeding are very small and most probably i will fail but if I don't try than I'll be that much more of a failure. So im gonna try with the intention of reaching my dream.
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